PixelScrapper February Blog Train – “Enjoy Each Moment”

A Little News

It’s been a rough start to the year this year, but I’m finally beginning to get myself dug out of the piles of things that backed up during the extended weeks of flareups. Two ER visits due to nerve compression in my back and three GYN visits to track an ovarian cyst didn’t help reduce the drama level much, either, but I can walk again most days and I’m not dealing with stabbing pains either, so that’s a definite improvement! That still leaves the upstairs neighbors stomping on the floor at all hours of the night (sounds like a herd of elephants sometimes dropping bowling balls for fun at 4am right above my bed *sigh*), who are supposedly being evicted soon for multiple reasons. It also leaves my roommates who rarely clean at all, eat my tasty from-scratch food while only buying things like Hamburger Helper and Mac & Cheese to replace it (more rant on that one in a bit), don’t communicate well so they yell at each other on a regular basis, and are expecting their first child in early May…. Things that trigger/worsen flareups for me: UV light (sun AND fluorescents, which means every grocery run or doctor’s appt), poor diet (like the way my hands swell within an hour and a half after eating Hamburger Helper), stress (like from worrying about whether I’m going to have enough food left to get through the month, or from hearing them arguing loudly enough that my gaming friends can hear their raised voices over my headset when I’m 2 rooms down the hall with my door closed), poor sleep (say, from getting woken up 3-4 times a night by the upstairs neighbors and them making so much noise I don’t fall back asleep for an hour), and overdoing it physically (like trying to keep the main rooms cleaned up enough so I can get around with my wheelchair when my legs aren’t working and they leave dirty dishes, empty water bottles and gas station soda cups all over, empty chip bags on the floor, shoes, chairs, and clothes in the middle of the floor…despite there being trash bins within 10 feet of anywhere in the kitchen, living, and dining rooms)… is it any wonder I’ve been dealing with massive flareups?

A Little Rant…

I said I’d rant a bit more about the food thing. I put 2 lbs of 93% lean ground beef into a 5-quart crock pot a couple of weeks ago, plus a large onion, some carrots, minced garlic, about 5 cans of beans, a can of tomatoes, and a few tablespoons of chili powder… the crock was 3/4″ (about 2cm) from the top edge. I’d about overdone my back by the time I got it put together, so I went to lie down and rest, and ended up falling asleep. I told my roommate it was still cooking and should be done around the time his wife got off work in 5 hours. When I woke up 6.5 hours later, there was about 1 inch (2.5cm) left in the bottom of the pot, just under a quart left. His wife said she was on her second bowl, but I know that any time I’ve ever made a plate for her, she’s full on somewhat less than what I eat. Realistically, in the hour and a half since she got home, even being 5 months pregnant, she only had about 3 cups…which means her husband ate over 3 QUARTS of homemade chili in the hours I was asleep (3 litres for those of use who use the metric system)! I can’t even manage that in 3 days! And he had the nerve to complain that he still wasn’t full! And two days before that, a 4.5-lb (2kg) roast and veggies had been eaten in the space of 10 hours… So, when I got my disability check this month, I put in an order for an electric skillet to go with my crock pot and rice cooker and electric kettle…and I’m mostly cooking on the other end of my computer desk. (It cost me less than the ingredients to those two big-batch (10-12 servings each) meals where I only got 1 meal of roast, the dregs of the veggies, and 2 full meals of chili… so I’m considering it a worthy investment at this point since I’m not losing over 80 percent of each batch.) I’m keeping all the ingredients that don’t need to be refrigerated in here, too. (Still debating as to whether I want to spend a few bucks on a fridge off Craigslist so that I have my own–there’s never room to freeze parts of my big-batch meals because the healthy stuff gets eaten and replaced with boxes of fish sticks and 75% lean premade burgers!) I’m DONE with that BS; they can buy their own groceries from now on… I know they’ll never give me $30 to replace the ingredients that he hoovered into that bottomless pit he calls a stomach, but at least I won’t be running low on food because he made it disappear anymore. I’m also saving up as much as I can towards moving expenses so that I can relocate to someplace either without roommates at all, or with a more respectful one at the very least.

Back to the Blog Train

Wow, that turned into a lot longer rant than I expected…thanks for reading if you did. If you didn’t read it all, that’s no problem; some days I wouldn’t be up to reading it either.

Anyway, I’ve got a paper pack for you this month, nothing really huge, but it’ll help make some cheery pages. It’s not too surprising that I’d gravitate to the cooler navy and teal with all the stress I’ve had going on!

You can download it HERE.

And once you’ve grabbed my portion, be sure to go back to the main thread at PixelScrapper to download all the other parts–at least, if you haven’t already because I’m so late with this!

8 Responses

  1. Jessica

    First off Holly beautiful paper pack! I’m looking forward to scrapping with it! Thank you for sharing esp considering whats been going on with you lately. Your situation sounds very stressful…health issues are enough to deal with on their own but outside factors can make things so much harder. I hope you are able to get into a better situation soon! I understand sometimes you just need to get stuff off your chest but know I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts! As it is after reading that I was wondering if you were having to deal with migraines again. All that stress would be triggering mine. Hopefully it hasn’t for you as you have your fair share to deal with right now. Hang in there and thanks again for the lovely pack!

    • Holly Wolf

      Every flareup triggers headaches that aren’t technically migraines because they’re being caused by the lupus flareup, but they’ve got all the light and sound sensitivity, nausea, and the little guy trying to bust his way out of my head with a maul that most people associate with a classical migraine. Thankfully, I haven’t been having the atypical (hemiplegic) migraines for a few months, and I’m hoping that will stay that way. 🙂

      It’s been so stressful that the flareup triggered enough inflammation to compress nerve roots off my spine and cause symptoms that had me calling an ambulance to take me and my wheelchair to the hospital for scans to investigate the possibility of cauda equina syndrome. (I don’t want to go into obscenely biological detail, but if you look it up, I think you’ll be able to guess which symptom happened due to a pinched nerve root and had me seriously concerned. Considering I already have days when my legs don’t work, it’s relatively obvious in the list.)

      I’m working on being able to relocate to central Arkansas, preferably this spring. And with my sweetie changing employers, I might even get to see him regularly. (His job requires traveling to work on large construction projects; the last one was 15 hours from home, so he wasn’t likely to get home unless he had at least a 4-day weekend. The new one is only a 7.5-hour drive, so he’ll probably be home anytime he has 2 days off in a row.)

  2. Sherry D'Ambrosio

    Wow Holly, those roommates need a swift kick and then some! You sure don’t need those additional complications to your life. I’ve got fibro that never goes into remission, migraines (Botox was best treatment ever), and several other chronic pain conditions so I know what all that additional stress is doing to you. Sending healing hugs and prayers your way. Many thanks for lovely papers.

  3. Laurel

    Holly, beautiful papers! Roommates suck- if you lived near me, I’d give you my mini-fridge, so at least you would have something!

  4. Maggie

    Wow! I would be saving to move out too!!! I could never put up with that even for a day. I pray for finances to move into an amazing place where you can relax and find peace. Thanks for the lovely papers xx

  5. Pam Craft

    WOW! You living situation is enough to send anyone to the nutty bin! I hope by this time you have gotten it resolved and that you are feeling better.

  6. Annette

    Thanks so much for the lovely papers, and I hope things are going a bit better for you now……

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